July 24, 2013
It’s hard to believe I’m no longer 22.
Several people asked me how old I feel today. I don’t feel 23. I feel younger now than I did when I turned 22. On my 22nd birthday, I had Canary rehearsal. We had our first show with Naomi the following day. I wasn’t consciously stressed, but looking back there was some stress. There had to be. I was still heartbroken and trying to move forward while patching up the pain.
Eventually we got there. We got real close to some really cool things. Then Naomi quit. Alex and I were very angry. I was really angry. I’m not an angry person and that took its toll on me big time. Then Brooke came along and a lot of it went away. Between Brooke and our road trip to SXSW, March was as awesome as February was terrible.
So now I’ve turned a new leaf, let go of a lot of anger, and feel a lot better. I untied myself in a lot of ways in the past year. Especially recently. I used to be so focused on getting it right the first time. Well, I clearly didn’t do that so it’s time to embrace the mess and stop longing for what I can’t have because I don’t have a band of high school buddies. It’s a different world, and in order to succeed, I have to do different things.
And I’m okay with that.
I think 23 is going to work out just fine.
May 31, 2013 2:07AM
I love Bruce Springsteen more than life itself.
If I’m exaggerating, I’m not exaggerating much.
Bruce has been at the heart of my musical adventures since I discovered him in earnest when I was 15. When people asked me what I wanted to do with my life or what I wanted out of life I said I wanted to be Bruce Springsteen.
One friend said, “Wow. Most people say they want money or fame, but you have it narrowed down to one person. That’s impressive.”
That notion of narrowing down hasn’t left. My desire to be Bruce Springsteen - which at that point was nothing shy of literal - has diminished. Only due to physical limitations in the fact that he already exists.
And thank GOD he does exist.
What can I write about Bruce that hasn’t already been written?
I play a butterscotch blonde Telecaster for two very specific reasons: Keith Richards and Bruce Springsteen.
I’m slowly coming full circle with my everlasting love of Bruce Springsteen. When I first started really listening to Bruce, I really wanted to be him. I wanted to sing and write and play my own songs. I quickly learned that Bruce and I grew up in incredibly different environments and times and my songs wouldn’t sound quite like his because of those, for better or worse.
But I learned that while my voice (musically and otherwise) will never sound quite like Bruce, there are a number of other parts of him that I can embody and learn from. His passion, his work ethic, his social conscience, his ambition, his loyalty, his level of awareness, and how much he believes in his songs and how important his fans are to him.
And he knows how important he is to his fans.